Confession
time.
I am a
perfectionist.
Unfortunately
the trait didn’t come with the skills to back up my idealism in most areas of
my life. But one thing I can control is how I present myself to the world. Even
if my life is far from perfect, I can put on my mask of perfection and create
the illusion that I have it all together.
I don’t
leave the house without flawless make-up. You’ll never catch me at the store in
my yoga pants. And if you ask me how I’m doing, I’ll probably smile and say
everything’s fine. Even if my life’s about to come apart at the seams.
Somewhere
along the way, I became so focused on keeping up appearance that I failed to
recognize the deceit in the practice. I withhold myself from people who are
trying to form a connection with me because I’m afraid they might see the
truth. I’m a mess.
I don’t
want to be a mess. I want to be perfect. I want to be the kind of person God
can use. And why would he want the messy, frazzled, imperfection that I am
without the mask?
But
God’s been showing me something lately through His word. He didn’t use any
perfect people. As a matter of fact, everyone He used was flawed by my
standards.
God
doesn’t use perfection. He uses transparency. He wants to show the beauty of
the transformation process through the mess.
And what
ever made me think I know how to better present perfection and beauty than the
Lord of Lords and King of Kings? I am created in His image. He molded me
exactly how he wanted me. And maybe he gave me a generous dose of creativity in
place of my share of organizational skill because he has a purpose for that in
my life.
So
today, I’m joining FACE.me day and I’m taking off the mask. Psalm 139:14 says I
praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Wonderful are
your works; my soul knows it very well.
I am fearfully and wonderfully made, flaws and all!
My
mask puts a barrier between me and the people I meet. How many friendships have
I forfeited? How many opportunities have I missed? All in the name of my own
skewed version of perfection. And worse, I have built a barrier between me and
God because I’ve resisted who he created me to be. Playing pretend doesn’t work
with God. He sees it all.
I’ll
be honest. I’m not interested in forever abandoning make-up. I’m not convinced
God has required that of me. But I am going to focus on being more transparent
and breaking down the barrier I’ve created to perpetuate the lie of perfection.
I’m
not perfect. I’m flawed. But I’m God’s work in progress. And that’s a whole
different kind of beautiful.
You’ve
see my bare face. Now it’s your turn. I challenge you to take off your mask
today and post a make-up free photo of yourself on facebook. Because you are
fearfully and wonderfully made, let’s praise Him together!
For
more FACE.me inspiration check out the other blogs on this make-up free blog tour:
Nick Kording: http://nickkording.com/thoughts/...
Lindsay Harrel: http://www.lindsayharrel.com
Joseph Courtemanche: http://www.commotioninthepews.com
Gabrielle Meyer: http://www.gabriellemeyer.com
Jaime Wright: http://coffeecupsandcamisoles.blogspot.com
Carrie Wisehart: http://www.carriewisehart.com
Emilie Anne Hendryx: http://eahendryx.blogspot.com
Sarah Baker: http://godbooksandchocolate.blogspot.com/?m=1
Kristy Cambron: http://www.kristycambron.com
Rachel Britz: http://www.rachelbritz.com
Cara Putman: http://www.caraputman.com
Stacy Monson: http://www.Landof10000words.wordpress.com
Laurie Tomlinson: http://www.laurietomlinson.com
Lindsay Harrel: http://www.lindsayharrel.com
Joseph Courtemanche: http://www.commotioninthepews.com
Gabrielle Meyer: http://www.gabriellemeyer.com
Jaime Wright: http://coffeecupsandcamisoles.blogspot.com
Carrie Wisehart: http://www.carriewisehart.com
Emilie Anne Hendryx: http://eahendryx.blogspot.com
Sarah Baker: http://godbooksandchocolate.blogspot.com/?m=1
Kristy Cambron: http://www.kristycambron.com
Rachel Britz: http://www.rachelbritz.com
Cara Putman: http://www.caraputman.com
Stacy Monson: http://www.Landof10000words.wordpress.com
Laurie Tomlinson: http://www.laurietomlinson.com
Great post, Andrea! We're opposite on the make-up front, I happily leave the house without any most days, but what you said about "keeping up appearances" is so so true!
ReplyDeleteLoved this! I think you're beautiful! "I'm not perfect. I'm flawed." Reminds me so much of the Shulamite woman in Song of Solomon. "I am dark but lovely."
ReplyDelete"God doesn’t use perfection. He uses transparency. He wants to show the beauty of the transformation process through the mess."
ReplyDeleteSo brilliant and beautiful, you!!!
Loved this! Transparency - using what we see as flaws to show His glory is such a powerful message. Thanks for sharing yourself & your insights - and for being beautiful!
ReplyDeleteI am learning to embrace the mess so that He can create His art in me. Great post!
ReplyDeleteThank you for sharing Andrea - I'm totally a perfectionist as well! I know how you feel but I love that you were brave and jumped in on the FACEme tour!
ReplyDeleteLove this, Andrea! I haven't really thought about how when I hide behind my makeup (or my smile or whatever), it creates a barrier between me and potential friends, and me and God. It's all about being transparent. Thanks for a great post!
ReplyDeleteYou look beautiful! No need for make up. We all just see our own flaws.
ReplyDeletePerfectionism = such a trap! It causes me a struggle too. But I love this post and really... your pic. is just so beautiful!!! Thank you for encouraging us to rally in the imperfect moments, to lean on Him and boast in our weakness. Many hugs, my friend!
ReplyDeleteNo more closed doors, pretty lady, and thank you for opening and letting us in!! WOW! Your vulnerability is infectious and draws me in. HUGS
ReplyDeleteI can so relate to the perfectionism trap. Yikes! Thanks for sharing your heart...
ReplyDeleteSuch truth in your words. Thinking about how many relationships I may have forfeited too because I was too afraid to be authentic.
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